Saturday, January 21, 2017
A Mixed Bag
All is quiet here. The spouse is working overtime on a project and bringing home more bacon than usual, which has enabled us to pay down credit card debt much faster than we'd hoped. We are finding ourselves in a stronger place financially now that the kids have all just about finished with college.
I've been cleaning and decluttering: it's a continual process. May 15th will mark the 10 year anniversary of the day that I began to realize that I was in dire financial straits again, sinking into foreclosure and bankruptcy. Again. May 15th 2007. Has it really been 10 years? I think if I'd known back then that it would take 10 years for me personally to get my attitudes and my financial house in order, I may well have become so disheartened that I would've stopped before I started!! Thank goodness I didn't know how long it would take me.
I'm doing well with my grocery challenge. I have $144 a week to spend on any and all food expenditures including Starbucks and restaurants but I am finding that there is no money left over for Starbucks and restaurants! All of my budget is spent at my usual grocery stores for the ingredients for home cooked meals and work day lunches. There are 3 adults living at home right now so it works out to $48/week/person. I buy a lot of organic food too. If I cut down on the organics, my bill would be lower but I'm not willing to do that so ....
I've started to separate the clothing in my closet into the stuff I wear all the time vs the stuff I never seem to wear. I put the stuff I never wear into a different room's closet so that I don't have to look at it and the result is that I never go looking for it and I don't miss it. Does this mean I should donate it? I can't imagine how much money I've lost over the years in donating the results of my impulsive shopping trips for clothing I never needed ~ thousands of dollars worth without a doubt. I used to take black trash bags filled with never-been-worn clothing with the price tags still attached to the local women's shelter thrift shop. I haven't done that in a while but maybe I should make one last trip? I'm giving it serious consideration.
I heard from a family member in the UK that my father's most recent operation to correct urinary incontinence was unsuccessful. He will have to wear a catheter now to the end of his days. I get the feeling that both of my parents are not long for this world but I have already let go. I'm aware that most people wouldn't understand my stance in letting go before they're gone, but then most people didn't live the harrowing childhood that I lived with a male parent who victimized little kids. Some things are just unforgivable and I battle daily with my inability to forgive. I find myself reaching a certain point of forgiveness but then completely unable to progress beyond that given point to a place of total forgiveness. I cannot seem to get there just yet but I'm determined to find peace with my mindset anyway.
So that's where things are at today. Life is good and we are healthy. I am grateful for my life in America and I adore my spouse. I am looking forward to the future.